Strawberries and deceit

 

The rise and tide of my dismay,

Losing this delusion day by day,

A failing of perception,

Feeding the deception,

Falling down once again,

Hope is a lie, nothing but pain,

Life is unfair,

So I continue without care,

Silence is my answer,

Spreading like cancer,

The conversation always mine to initiate,

As always none participate,

A feeling without validation,

Never to feel vindication,

I continue on with the smell of strawberries and deceit,

At the end, ever predicted, my defeat,

A struggle to finish without a bad end,

Support and structure is easy to send,

My will is supple and spry,

Broken simply just by one sigh,

Easy to appease,

Easier still to tease,

Fuck it, why not give it another try,

Should be easy enough before I die,

Trying to give words to the unknown,

Something intangible and not entirely my own,

A cycle hopefully broken,

If only the words are spoken